a litl update so i took the job and my last day in radiology will be the 17th im very nervous yet excited at the same time im going to miss all my friends there for sure they have all been there for me the last year and i couldnt of made it throught with out them they all have a special place in my life..but i need to do this i need to move on and go to school full time and just get done with it. gonna be working some weird hours though 5am-130pm or 1-930.. not to bad except ill have to wake up at like 345 in the morning sometimes but in the end i think it will be worth it..
so this weekend on friday me and adri and lisa took a last minute random trip to CMU and it was so fun im so glad we went i miss my girls up there and i was glad we got to go up there and party with them and see t hem since i hadnt been there since welcome weekend...then saturday we woke up chilled up there with them for a while and went out to lunch then hit the road and t hat was actually cool 2 we all got to talk the whole way home and we got to listen to each other and help each other out and i love my friends i couldnt make it without them they are the best ever...then i got home took a shower and had to get ready real fast because i was going out with John for the nite..We went to Macaroni Grill yummy yummy and rented the movie Crash i thought it was good but dragged out and JOhn didnt like it at all but all and all it was a fun nite and im glad i got to spend time with him since i never get to see him. But that will all be changing to hopefully soon =)
Today i must 1) do laundry 2) Homework/ write a paper also 3) go to COSTCO with moms 4) Go visit miss Jessica @ the Hospital 5) Watch my shows with my girls =)
so ima go get productive and t ry to get everything done..i hope everyone had a nice weekend!!!
not to much new going on here...just working and trying to do good in school and stay focused..but im getting off track and all i feel like doing anymore is sleeping i dont no why but im tired all the time and just dont feel good..honestly all i care about anymore is finishing school and starting my life..going out and partying and all that just isnt appealing to me lately which is odd... kinda just been keeping to my self lately and its safer that way then i dont blow up on anyone or nething because i have been very moody and im sorry about that guys....ive just learned so much in this last year and its amazing...ive learned u can only trust yourself and rely on yourself..the people you think that would never hurt u do...life is never fair and the best people always seem to get hurt...everyone lies and it sucks....i could go on and on but i wont.... On one good note my interview went really well and i need to make some fast decisions about that and i hate making decisions but ive put everything on paper and weighed out the goods and the bad i will make my decision off of that and what my heart tells me to do...so as soon as i make my decision i will let everyone no...ive been thinking a lot lately about stuff and sometimes i think i take stuff to seriously but then again maybe thats a good thing..ive realized how important family and friends are and how you can never get by without them..i love my family so much and weve become so much closer after everything thats happened to us..my uncles cancer is back for the 4th time and this time it is a lot worse and has to have a bone marrow transplant. if his brother isnt a match im gonna get tested i would do anything i could to help him...one bright thing is my cousin is pregnant which is his daughter and gives everybody in the family smething to look forward to and keep everyone going. my dads mom has alzheimers and its getting worse fast pretty soon she wont even rememeber who i am and that breaks my heart my grandma and i use to be so close and she wont even remember any of that or even me now..life can be so depressing at times...well im gonna get going i have homework to attend to..at least im doing really good and school and thats a plus for me because i usually suck at school so go me!!!!
so i have been thinking a lot lately surprise surprise....im looking for a new job for sure because all this one is doing is breaking me down, im in such a bad mood when im there and it not only effects me but the people i care about and i hate that. i think i might go either check out another hospital, doctors office or even a bank maybe.
plus i want a day job i want my life back i hate not being home at nite i miss it so much i was home on tuesday this week and had dinner with my family and stuff and my parents were so happy just to sit and have a meal with me isnt that sad i miss having dinner at home and just being around my parents and being home..i feel like i miss out on so much not being home and being able to go out at nite..yea i can sleep in and im home during hte day but nobody else is home so theres no point all i do is go to school or sleep funfun!!!
enough complaining but now to the good stuff..so i took tuesday off and me and John finally got to hang out and that was fun i got free passes to the premier of "in her shoes" it was really good and funny even john liked it and admitted it was good and it was a chic flick..im glad him and i are talking moer and stuff hes a really nice guy..then what else is new hmm..
Well me and adrianne are still the bestest of friends and i wish i could show her how much i care about her and how much i love having her in my life as my best friend i can always count on her and the same of me to her..no matter what we do we always have fun together and we understand each other and have been through a lot together and its made us the best of friends.i would do anything i could for her and im the sure she would do the same for me. were going to Florida in December and its gonna be agood time just to get away from school and work and everything and go somewere warm =) im jealous shes going to new york in a couple of weeks and thats my dream to go there but im so happy for her she deserves it so much and i no shes gonna have a good time =)
besides that nothing new really going on..ughh kathys coming home this weekend i think and that'll be fun cuz im off and we can hang out and stuff and i think im hanging out with john sometime this weekend and im looking forward to that...besides that nothing really so im outty time for bed!!
so today is a no school day and i love it..i only go to school mon,tues,wends, and its the best thing ever cuz by thursday im like ready to have a break....
so yea today talked to megan about homecoming weekend and yea totally pissed off about that one...im very hurt by it and am rethinking the whole friendship thing because real friends dont do things like that..was she even gonna tell me about it or wait to the last minute..i told her when i took that time off i was only taking it to come up and see her since u have to plan on seeing her 8 months ahead of time..but once again she put someone before me sorry im not 21 but i c ant help that...and u said she needs u and what about me?? do u even care u never call me or do anything towards our friendship i have to intiate everything all the time and i understnad ur busy but a phone call every month for 5 minutes isnt asking for much..whatever though im not gonna go on any longer about this cuz im threw...
on another note me and adg went to lunch at el charros today yummy and then went to payless to try on some fun shoes and to visit tric at coffee beanery we got this new drink its hot apple carmal cider and its delicious =) then i had to come home and get ready for work i wish i was off though cuz we coulda got a lot done today but our schedules never match but we always find time to see each other and at least call each other she is the best friend ever and i couldnt ask for anybody better..and were going to florida december 1-4th and its gonna be so nice just to get away for a couple days somewere warm!!! but i gotta get going for n0w work is a calling me!!!
so yea i hope fall is finally here its my favoroit season and maybe that will bring some happiness into my life but i doubt it.....well just found out my uncles cancer is back for the 4th time =( how many times can this happen its getting so hard on everyone and i hate it, hes way to young for this to be happening....
whats new in my life nothing at all..very aggravated is how i could explain it..im looking for a new job and its like a hobby its so hard to find part time good paying jobs out there...but i still look everyday i wont give up until i find what im looking for.
ive been doing a lot of thinking lately and its weird cuz i keep having these weird dreams and i just wish i would no why i was having dreams like this?? is there a reason or something??? i wanna get a book on dreams and what they mean cuz i tend to have very odd unexplainable ones...i got a quote book this weekend and if u no me im obsessed with quotes and i love em so im excited!!!!
schools going pretty good so far but thats cuz i have no other distractions really so thats a plus i guess in some ways its amazing what you can do if you really try...wish i woulda been like this in the begining....dont really have much to look forward to right now accept im going to florida with the family in the begining of december and thatll be nice to just get a way for a little bit before finals and christmas...i wish i was going to new york though its still my dream to go there around christmas and one day its gonna happen and i cant wait for that...
well im gonna get going just htought i would update because i havent been doing much of that lately so i thought i would write a bit...hope all is well with everyone....
so im sitting here balling my eyes out and i cant help it...im listening to tim mcgraws live like you were dieing and i can never help but to ball my eyes when i hear it now...i almost lost my dad this summer and it still kills me...i dont think ill ever get over the feeling and the way i felt when i seen him laying there helpless...noone understands how i feel...i try to hide things so good but then i have days and i just bust out...and today is one of those day i dunno why i get so sad i wish i didnt....and of course i never tell anyone cuz i hate going to people and being all sad im the strong that is always tehre for everyone...i wish i could explain how it feels to be me..i get chest pains and tingly everywere im just sad in side i hate it i hate it!!!i hate how i am why do i let everything bother me why???i live in a fantasy world and im like a litl kid..and i no this isnt making sense but it feels better to just write how im feeling...i found a song and i love it and its how i feel...tim mcgraw...my best friend...its so good i just wish it meant something......
so i went to the Kelly Clarkson concert tonite omg it was sooo good i loved it...my throat hurts from singing i wasl ike having my own concert...took some pics i hope they turned out.but now i gotta work 3 out of the next 4 days im bummed out i want to be off to enjoy the end of the summer...
i start school a week from today isnt that crazy??? im excited though i need to get focused on it and get moving along..i honestly want to be done with school and start the next phase of my life im ready i really am.maybe its cuz i work full time and i just think i can handle it..
next weekend i am looking forward to going up to CMU for welcome weekend and u no thats always a fun one!Im gonna miss everyone though i dont want them to go back to school its to early and soon the sumemr went by to fast..i didnt do nething really this summer...im hoping next summer will be better but i say that e very year but at least will be 21 well most of us and that should open up more doors..
well im going to bed im gonna pass out so if nething is going on this weekend lemme no!!!
“In fairy tales it begins with, ‘Once upon a time... and they lived happily ever after,’ but in real life it begins with, ‘They lived happily ever after... once upon a time.’”
i found this quote and i think it is sorta the truth.....
well this weekend went by to fast as usaul...i jsut worked and thats about it i didnt feel good all weekend so i kinda just lounged around and stuff..which is good and bad all at the same tiem when i just lay around i think about things to much and i really hate that..i wish i didnt care so much about things but i let everything bug me..i guess thats just the kind of person i am..dont have much to say but ill just say this KElly Clarkston-since youve been gone...describes exactly how i feel i cant wait to go to her concert on wendsday =)
nite everyone hope u had a great weekend......
school starts in 10 days and im actually excited!!!!
yea so its been a while... whats new??? well im single again any takers lol...i should of known things were going to good for me..but o well my new thing is WHO CARES???? if he didnt care why should i?? whatever
I cant believe how fast this summer is going by..its almost august and that means back to school...nothing really good has happend this summer...summers are alwasy bad for me i should just sleep the whole summer throuh besides fall is my favoroit...
going on an interview tommorrow very excited about at more money and out of the hospital with all the drama and shit...well im gonna get going ill update more soon...i gotta start righting in here more than every other month....
O- One wish: to go to new york at christmas P- Phobia[s]: spiders, and chlasterphobia
Q- Quote: "live every day as if it were ur last.."
R- Reason to smile: kyle =)
S- Song you sang last: frankie j how to deal
T- Time you woke up today: 11
U- Unknown fact about me: nothing i can think of
W- Worst habit: biting my nails
X- X-rays you've had: teeth,hand,foot,chest
Y- Your least favorite person as of right now? hmmmm i dunno
Z-Zodiac sign: gemini
SEVEN THINGS IN YOUR ROOM: 1. Bed 2. tv 3. alarm clock 4. pictures 5. purses 6. clothes 7. lamp
TOP SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY MOST: 1. um 2. hmmmm 3. no/yes 4. oh god 5. like 6. why 7. i dont want to go to work
SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT: 1. food 2. music 3. cell phone 4. internet 5. freinds 6. ice cream 7. sex lol
SEVEN THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. sky dive 2. new york at christmas 3. fall in love and be married till we die 4. mall of america 5. vacation in anothe country 6. win the lottery 7. make a difference in someones life
SEVEN OTHER THINGS: Do You: 1. Smoke? no 2. Do drugs? no 3. Read the newspaper? yea 4. Pray? yea 5. Have a Job? st john macomb 6. Attend Church? yea 7. Wish on stars? all the time
Have you ever: 1. Gone skinny dipping? yea 2. Had surgery? yup 3. Swam in the dark? yes 4. Been to a bonfire? yes 5. Ran away from home? maybe when i was little 6. Played strip poker? i watched people play it lol 7. Pulled an all nighter? yeah
Have you in the past 24 hours: 1. Cried? no 2. Sang? yes 3. Been kissed? yup 4. Felt stupid? yea all the time 5. Talked to an ex? nope 6. Missed someone? yes 7. Hugged someone? yup link post comment
Man o Man its so hot out today its gonna be like 96...i think i may lay out if i can take the heat... Im so bummed out about the Pistons Losing but hey we did have a great series and theres always next year like Chauncey said "were just letting them borrow the trophy till next year" =)
so i got today off of work but i gotta work at 6 am tommorrow so it kinda makes it hard to do nething tonite since ih ave to be up at 445... but then i have sunday and monday off which shall be nice i just wish that me and kyle could get are schedules to work together but o well we make it work..
Trying to plan a trip but i cant decide between Chicago or NEw York i always wanted to go to New York but id like to go there at Christmas time so i guess whichever one has the better deal we will do..
This summer has been pretty good so far all ive been doing is a lot of working nothing to exciting yet gone to the movies and played putt putt and just hung out you no the normal i just cant wait till next summer when were all 21 its gonna be so much better..i never realized how much it sucks not to be 21 till you date someone who is older and you feel left out when you cant go to the bar with them..only like 10 more months lol
Anybody no whats going on for the 4th of July yet im planning on having everyone over on the 3rd which is a Sunday for a BBQ so dont make plans....
Well im off for now got runnin around to do target,bank,gas,car wash, and home depot to get a damn ceiling fan...
First Best Friend: Liz Fluegge First car: 92 Lebaron First real kiss:jimmy ahhhh First break up: that would be jimmy to0 First screen name: uhh i dunno liltitan21
First self-purchased album:n'sync First pets: Rusty First piercing/Tatto: my ears and my shooting star tattoo First credit card: American Eagle First true love: Ryan First enemy: liz but we will always be friends First musician you remember hearing in your house: REO or ROd Stewert
Lasts
Last ciggerite: never had one.. Last car ride: on my way back from baskins with Megs Last kiss: Kyle Last good cry: a while ago Last library book checked out: uhh in high school probably
Last movie seen: Alot like love Last beverage drank: COke Last food consumed: choc chip cookie dough ice cream Last crush: Kyle Last phone call: Allison Last time showered: this morning or after noon lol LAst cd played: a country/american idol mix Last item bought: baskin robins Last annoyance: traffic Last disappointed: umm probably during the week Last time wanting to die: uhh what kind of ? is this Last time scolded: uhhh by kyle hehe =) Last shirt worn: yellow and blue zip up Last website visited: lj Last word you said: i dont even no what that means lol
Last song you sang: your so vein...carly simon
What
What is in your cd player? my burned cd
What color socks are you wearing? white What color of underwear are you wearing?? pink What's under your bed? nothing at all im clean girl
What time did you wake up? 11:45
Future
Where do you want to go? Australia,France,NYC,MInnesota,Carolina What is your career going to be? i would tell you if i even new Where are you going to live? probably in good ol michigan how many kids do you want? 2 or 3 just as long as there healthy What kind of car(s)? Ford Escape
Current
Current mood: blahh Current music: got your so vein stuck in my head Current taste: ice cream Current hair: down and straight
Current clothes: blue and yellow zip up and jeans Current annoyance: work Current longing: to no what i want to be Current desktop picture: Spring Break pic!!
Current favorite artist: Kenny Chesney Current book(s): i only read magazines Current color of toenails: pink. Current time-wasting wish: i wish i new what i wanted to be
Ok i guess i should update huh..sorry megs i never write anymore my life is boring what can i say hehe...
WEll ill update with starting today...I slept till like noon as usual then i had to get up and get ready to go to work..Went to work it was the same ol same ol and called it a day lol...noone wants to read boring stuff like that...I work tommorow then ih ave Friday off and my mom and me are going to the womens show at the novi expo center thats always fun u get like free stuff and lots of cool stuff there to buy...then i gotta work on saturday but it wont be so bad i work with jen and we always have fun at work together then i dunno if anything is going on afterwards or not im up for going out or something....then Sunday i get to spend the whole day with my kyle yay!!!were gonna go shopping for a tent cuz were going camping this summer..
I cant wait for everyone to come home from CEntral i miss u all..i hope this summer is a good one e ven though we say this every summer lol..no breaking my foot this summer though or ill just die...i wanna go to like some concerts and like do some things weve never done and stuff and a definite trip to Ceder Pointe!!!
Boy Survey - His name: Kyle His age: 23 How many months are u apart: over a year How long have you been together: were not even together but we are lol How Long did you know each other before you got together?: a couple months What physical feature attracted you to him first?: it wasnt a physical attraction i love his personality Eye color: brown Hair color: dark brown Hair style: long and wavy curly Normal Outfit: hes my abercrombie/hollister boy he even wears flip flops and pink lol How did you meet: at work
RELATIONSHIP STUFF
How serious is it: not to serious Do you love him: nahh its to early for that Does he love you: im thinking not Do your parents like him: idunno bout that one lol Do you trust him: yea Would you share a toothbrush with him: i sure would Does he let you wear his pants: he said i could Do you have a shirt of his to sleep in that smells like him: no but he does smell good Do you like the way he smells: yea abercrombie fierce Can you picture having kids with him: uhh i dont think that far in advance What bothers you the most about him: i dunno Does he have a temper: no not at all Are you happy to be with him: yea he makes me =) Does he embarrass you in public: nope Does he smoke or do drugs?: nopers Does he drink?: of course
SOME OTHER STUFF Does he have any peircings?: yeap ears and tongue Does he have any scars that you know of?: yea lots from hockey Is he a Party guy or Stay at home ?: party boy Is he Outgoing or Shy?: very outgoing Does he love his mama?: yea Would he hang out with you and YOUR friends?: yea Would he hang out with you and HIS friends?: all the time Comments: Add Your Own.
Well since i havent updated in a bajillion years ill update starting with the weekend...
I had to work on Friday but i got off at 10 to go the bar...Lisa,Alli, And I went to Canada with all the guys for Ryans bday yes it is kinda weird that i went to my exs bday but actually it wasnt weird at all it was one of my best times in Canada it was fun..Seen alicias friend David there he actually remembered me and i kinda rememberd him.. had lots of good drinks that nite even though i was the DD i was WASTED!!! i think we were all wasted.. After Canada we went to Coney of course and umm did i mention i had to work Saturday at 6 am which meant i needed to wake up at 445?? well i got home from coney at 4 in the morning and i was like im not even gonna bother going to bed cuz whats the point of going to sleep for 45 minutes there is no point! so i took a shower and got ready and dragged my ass to work..
Saturday got to work with no sleep felt bad for Jen cuz she had to work with my ass and i seriously couldnt function at all i kept falling asleep in my chair at least Saturdays arent busy or i woulda been screwed..After work i had every intention of coming home and goin to sleep but then my family wanted to go out to eat and stuff so i was like whatever ya no ive been up this long why not.. Then i talked to Megs and she was like lets go Shopping so i went shopping with her and went over her house were we had a girls nite which was much needed just relaxed..ate..watched the notebook..made my cute memory which i love Megs thanks again ur so crafty!!!! then i came home and passed out after being up like 40+ hours im surprised i made it that far im a trooper man =)
Sunday i slept in went over the grandparents had lunch with them and visited..drove home from there in a snowstorm..came home took a nappy..then decided i would be crazy and go out in the snow shopping went to meijers and target.. i bought a new tv and dvd player which im very excited about =) then i came home and watched some tv and called it a nite !!!
PRetty exciting stuff lol... jk well nothing is new in my life same ol same ol work work work!! but spring break is almost here 17 days and counting.. i cant wait its gonna be the best trip ever wohooo Daytona WHat!!!!
Well im outtie for now gota take a nappy before i go to work...bye yall!!
wow i havent wrote it a while ive been a busy litl bee lol...
Working like a lot of hours these last couple weeks i work 12 out of the next 14 days...lots of hours but i need the money so i guess its a good thing in a way..WEnt to Target this weekend and o yes i already got flip flops and a bathing suit lol u can never shop to early for the best season..WE LEAVE FOR DAYTONA In 46 days =) i cannot wait its gonna be so much fun..Lisa,ADri, and I all bought cowboy hats this weekend and they are to cute...i cant wait to prance around in them lol Prance is my new word i love it lol
What else is new hmmmm..nothing i can really htink of trying to figure out a weekend i can come up to central to see everyone i miss u all!!! and i love coming up there its alwasy so much fun and i wish u were all going on spring break with us..we will have to plan a litl trip this summer cuz we need a road trip lol...New York or Chicago maybe???? maybe even mall of America i always wanted to go there..
Megs please look at ur calendar and see when i can come up there or tell me when ur gonna be home so we can hang out and i still wanna make that board thingy..I miss u Megs i need u at work lol i need a litl visitor like u =) Good Luck on ur teaching Interview today !!! i no u can do it...
Kathy Good LUck on ur soroity thingy 2!!! I miss u KLIP =)
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